It’s easy to look away
Just put on a smile, laugh until the feeling fades
You’re the fun one and everyone should know
But everything I do, everything I try to say
Might seem tough and blunt, yet I always hesitate
Is this person just putting on a show?
Beating myself down to the ground
I try to get up, but then I wonder:
Is this where I belong?
Just when all is back to normal
Just when I thought that I had finally found my place on earth.
There’s a voice that keeps me from settling down
Everything I think, every thought that strokes my brain
I wonder if it’s real or if I’m just panicking
I learned to swim but still let myself get drowned.
You’re worthless, you deserve this, and you know what the worst is?
You noticed, yeah, you know that shit’s not gonna change.
You’re stuck in that spiral, still live in denial,
When you wake up tomorrow, you’ll think you’re okay.
Beating myself down to the ground
I still can’t get up, already knowing that
This can’t be going on.
What if… in the end, I’m just not enough?
Only the image of an empty face
Beating myself down to the ground
I’m just so tired of all this nonsense.
Why can’t I just move on?
Everything I think, every thought makes me complain
My inner demon built an empire inside my brain
There’s so much space…
So what are they so bitter for?
I’m worthless, I deserve this, and you know what the worst is?
I noticed, yeah, I know that shit’s not gonna change
I’m stuck in that spiral, still live in denial,
When I wake up tomorrow, I’ll think I'm okay
I have to be stronger, right now and today.
But the memories and the damage just won’t go away
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